2/5/2023 

Focusing this morning after feeling scattered and without clear direction.

How am I feeling? 

I’m feeling judgmental about myself because I’m not doing something grand. 

Aside from that, How am I feeling? 

I’m feeling frustrated because I don’t have time to do every little thing that entices me. 

Aside from that, How am I feeling? 

I’m wondering what the most important thing for me to do is because my time is limited. 

Aside from that, How am I feeling? 

Like a child who wants to draw and color and paint a picture, because it’s such a beautiful thing to do and I am so present when I’m working on drawing — because I’m not thinking about every other thing that I want to do. 

Aside from that, How am I feeling? 

I’m feeling connected to the Earth on a visceral level. In my core I feel connected to the Earth, because I am a part of the Earth, and the Earth is a part of me. 

Aside from that, How am I feeling? 

I feel like I am the stars and the space and the universe and the expense of nothingness because it is within me just as it is outside of me. 

Aside from that, How am I feeling? 

I feel like a point of light, a point of awareness looking all around and wondering how to connect and be and manifest and what do I want to do. 

Aside from that, How am I feeling? 

I feel like asking what I want to choose. 

What do I want to choose? 

I want to choose to be a cowboy. 

Aside from that, What do I want to choose? 

I want to know the secrets of the Earth and the plants. 

Aside from that, What do I want to choose?

I want to walk in a parade with my horse and dressed like a child of the Earth, and be that connection, and inspire children and adults to want that connection.  

Aside from that, What do I want to be, 

I want to be smiling and shining. I want to see people through God’s eyes, and to shine at them like God shines. 

Aside from that, What do I want to be? 

I want to be the grandmother who brings joy into the lives of my family, my grandchildren and my children. 

Is there anything else I want to be?

I want to be a teacher of plants and teacher of connection and a teacher through my experiences; to share my perspectives, and to be a learner as I’m constantly learning from others.  

What else do I want to be? 

I want to be a caretaker of the Earth and of my home and of my items of convenience. I want to behave as if the God and all things mattered. 

What else do I want to be?

I want to be able to live my life in a less frenzied way; to live my life on purpose and with a deep inner connection to what I want.  This is a far better way to be. 

What do I want to know? 

I want to know who I am so that I can be who I am, and I want to help others know who they are so that they can be who they are. 

What else do I want to be? 

I want to be full of joy and gratitude and appreciation and wonder because I want to move through life with all that, and with love and with the incredible knowing that I get to choose everything that I am, and that I do, and what I will be, and how I will affect the world and the people and everything around me. 

I’m like a nerve in the limitless body. 

I can receive stimulation, and I can also give stimulation to the body. 

I can make the body be aware through my awareness, and I can be aware of what the body is experiencing through my awareness. 

I can bring to the body whatever I choose. I’m only limited by my imagination and my desire and my choices.