Yesterday, after days of low energy, I had had enough of feeling tired.  I had my grandkids here, asking to help me . . . no . . . begging to help me so they could earn video game time.  I decided I really just needed to eat some chocolate so I would have enough energy to be able to direct their energy toward productivity.  It was one of those ox in the mire moments.  So I ate my chocolate — the bar I had hidden away to use for medicinal purposes only — and I’m not sorry about it.

Today I called my doctor’s office to get the results of my last blood test to see if my thyroid medicine was doing any good.  I have been trying different ones for almost a year now.

“Well,” they said, “it has been helping, you are closer to normal.”

“But I am not in the normal range yet?” I asked.

“No, but you are getting closer and the doctor said to continue with your medication as prescribed,” the lady in the doctor’s office said.  “In about 6 weeks we can get your blood rechecked.”

“I’ve been taking this dose for three months now,” I pointed out, just in case she didn’t realize it.

“Oh, yes,” she acknowledged after looking at my chart some more, “I see that you have been on this dose for three months already.  Hmmm.  Well, the doctor said you should continue on this dose.”

“Does it accumulate in the body so the longer I take it the more normal my hormones are?” I asked.

“Yeah, I think so.  You’ll have to ask the doctor about that when you come in again,” she hedged.

I said, “Ok, I guess for now I’ll just have to eat chocolate for energy.”

She didn’t seem to know what to say to my smart aleck remark and got off the phone with a quick, “Ok, goodbye.”

In all honesty I have to say I am glad I was able to get so much done today and yesterday.  I couldn’t have done it without my old friend chocolate.  After the work was done and I was relaxing, I felt happy.  I remembered hearing people say that chocolate is an anti depressant.  I have to agree.  Maybe that’s how people who drink coffee feel.  I understand much better now.

So my rationalization, for now, is that eating chocolate when I need the extra energy is ok until I figure something better out.  Melanie has something for me to try: some herbs and seaweed and lots of other good stuff.  I’ll let you know how it goes.  Having children who can teach me is so wonderful!